some poets notes just because I can't wrote them again in fb notes

When I looked at myself in the mirror

I just want to punch it

Because I can see it clearly,

The reflection of someone I hate the most

When I tried to close my eyes,

All I see is all my traumas

They are haunting me all night long

Until I struggled to fall asleep

But it's harder to stay awake

I overthink a lot

I often think to die

I cry all the time

And I'm so tired to keep up with this mask

"You're okay, it's just your feeling," they said

"You're blessed," they said

"Just be positive," they said

But what do they know

That even when you thought that you're blessed

With good friends, good family, a soul sister, and and caring lover

It's not enough

Not enough to keep me stay sane

Not enough to cure this depression

Not enough to stop thinking about suicide all the time

Save me

I cried everyday

Save me

I screamed silently

But all I found is I'm all alone

With no one to save

The burdens is all by myself

I can't make anyone having a hard time because of me

And then, I lost my way

And I can't save myself too

If someone hears me

I wish you could find me a way

Save me